Crap Days

Life is a Bitch Sometimes.

My day already didn't start out great because I had to go to a 3hr 8 am. That is like the worst thing ever. 3hrs are already awful by itself, but the fact that it is at 8am makes it 10 times worse. But I came out alive, barely. Then the rest of the day was downhill from there. But it got a lot better at 6 because I went to Pilates for the first time with my fwends and the instructor was literally me! We got there and the door wasn't open because it apparently never is and she was all riled up the same way I get when I'm pissed about something. She had the same mannerisms as me when I'm irked and she even sounded like me. It was so weird. So that was the highlight of my dull day. Meeting future me was pretty cool.  

Today I was going for a grunge look and that fit my mood perfectly. It kind of turned into a grunge Myspace look but I'm alright with that. I wasn't in the best mood when my girl Karllo took these and it comes across in the photos, but hey that's life.

  My shoes are absolutely my favorite part of this outfit. They're Ralph Lauren rain boots and I freaking love them! They were 60$ but I think that is a pretty good price for them.  

 My flannel is definitely a close second too my boots. It was originally 50!$ at Pacsun  which is ridiculous, but not for pacsun. Luckily it was a buy one get one free so I got two flannels for 50 bucks which is still a rip off but its better than one.

My pants are kind of a hot mess but that's what makes them work. I got them at crossroads here in SF not too long ago. The fringe in the holes was once connected, but in one sitting my little cousin's friend picked it all apart. So as that's where I'm at.

Today I was that fringe, I felt completely picked apart.

(lol #dramatic)

 My shirt was kind of see through so I had cleavage without having cleavage kind of thing, because it was covered. Its a conservative slut kind of thang.

Today was not great I let some people who were just trying to hurt me get the best of me and that ruined my day. 

I'm not a believer in smiling the pain away I'm not going to put on a fake smile for people, but I try to make myself feel better by watching something funny or doing something I enjoy.

So moral of the story people will be shitheads and there will be shitty days, but you just keep doin you and rise above the bullshit.

Pussy Day

Happy International Women's Day!!!!! 

I am taking a Hip Hop class at SF State and today we had a pretty special guest. Her name is Rocky Rivera and she is a female rapper, but she is also a journalist and I'm pretty sure she is a teacher too. She is a feminist that moves people through her music and I think that is amazing. In class a couple of her songs were played and one of them was Pussy Kills. She turned a word that is usually used as a derogatory term into an empowering word for women. I thought is really amazing that she could change the whole meaning of a word in one song. I will never use the word pussy in a derogatory way ever again.

After class a bunch of people were going up to her and taking pictures with her and I wanted to but I was way too shy and I didn't know what to say. I think she is coming back again, so when she does i'll be prepared to go up to her. Especially since when I got back to my dorm I started listening to her on spotify. So far I really like Still, Air Mail, Complex, Turn You, Find My Way, Brown Babies, and of course Pussy Kills.

I was a little insecure about posting these pictures, but women like Ashley Graham, Jazmine Sullivan, Mindy Kaling, Robyn Lawley, and now Rocky Rivera have really inspired me to say fuck it I'm BEAUTIFUL the way I am!

 

 

My top was an ugly dress from Old Navy that my cousin gave me. The dress just didn't flow right, but the fabric was really cool so I just cut it into a crop top. I really love it now because I don't have to wear a bra with it and it makes my boobs look fairly small which is very rare for me.

My shoes are from Naturalizer and they are conformable at first but after you wear them for too long they pinch your feet and the squawk with every step. They're sooo cute tho! So it's kind of worth it.

My jacket is from my friend Jess and its one of my favorite jackets now, so thankss Jess!

My earrings and belt are from my Mama. I'm pretty sure my earrings were hand made by an old friend of hers.  

I don't remember where I got my pants.

Anyway be confident, beautiful, and YOU.

You're already beautiful so now, if you don't already, flaunt it.

Happy Women's History Month!!!!!

Hey Y'all!

So today I found out that it is Women's History Month and I was like whaaaa, I did not know that was a thing. Its like really awesome that women have a month (plus it's my Bday month!), but what isn't awesome is that I didn't know about it. It never came up in grade school or high school and that is just ridiculous!

Since it is Women's History Month I thought I should post about some of the women who have an impact in my life.

My mom of course is someone who has made a huge impact in my life. It has been just the two of us for most of my life. She said we were like the Gilmore Girls, but we are not we have our own unique thing.

These are probably from Christmas Eve some many years ago; I'm pretty sure I didn't want to take a picture because my mom made me dress up. I thought these would be good to post because a lot of us take people who are important to us for granted. We don't appreciate what we have. So next time your mom or someone important to you goes out of their way for you remember to thanks them or let them know they are appreciated in some way it goes a log way.

This here is my grandma. That dope necklace she has on there is of all of her grandchildren and it has all our birthstones in it. She have birth to 7 children and took in a couple more.

I found these pictures not too long ago and I cannot believe my grandma let me do that!

She is now 85 and not doing so hot but I think she'll be okay.

She is someone who I probably took for granted and I regret it.

This was my very first cat Lola. She was around before I was even born. She is still to this day the best Cat ever. I miss her a lot. Near the end I took for granted I was too engaged in TV or my friends to really spend enough time with her and I really regret that, because she was an amazing kitty. I thought she would live longer than she did. I never thought about her not being there because she was always there.

Here are 3(+my mom) out of my 5 aunts. All amazing ladies who probably get taken for granted.

When someone is always there you get used to it and you just expect them to be around forever but no one is around forever and if you don't take the time to appreciate them they will leave even sooner than they have to. 

These here are Lily and Evan. Closest things I got to sisters. I love them a lot I feel like they take me for granted sometimes but I still love them lol.

This month is about the history of Women, but I also think it is a good reminder to look at the amazing Women who have constantly been there for you throughout your life and to really appreciate them and all they do for you. 

So have a happy Women's Month

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